Special Report Transcript Episode 50, Section 4, Time 15:02

Sandra Adonis and her late husband, Jacques were both student activists who joined the Bonteheuwel Military Wing. They were constantly on the run. Jacques was detained for nine months and very badly tortured. It changed both their lives. // My life started being a mess. My husband was quite … he would sometimes go off his trolley, he would be like a mad person and because he knows that his anger, his frustrations that he felt at that time was supposed to be directed at the state, but because I was the nearest person to him, he lashed out. And always afterwards he would say he’s sorry but as I said, how long can a person take somebody saying sorry to you. Just like these very Boers who have been interrogating us and torturing us is trying to say to us today, we are sorry, we didn’t mean that. We don’t need their apologies. Well I don’t need them, because I think my life is messed up as it is, directionless. I mean, I’ve lost my education and I’ve lost my childhood, although we have in return received our freedom and our democracy in this country.

Notes: TRC testimony: Sandra Adonis