Special Report Transcript Episode 79, Section 4, Time 39:58

It’s not easy. I think the last couple of years have been the hardest years of my entire life emotionally, physically, mentally. There are just so many balls in the air. I have a very, very understanding and caring wife but she constantly says to me don’t come and load off on me here, you have got to handle this and deal with this yourself and find someone else, I’ve got my own life to live. And that’s right. That’s absolutely fair. What do I do? Well, occasionally I roll on the floor with my granddaughter and all the stuff leaves you, because this precious little two-year old is just so much of the future and so much of hope. So that helps. I find that emotional thing the hardest, because you suppress it, you can’t display it, and it hits you at about three o’clock in the morning when you relive some of the stuff and your mind is so alive and you go over it and you see the faces and you hear the words. And it’s very rough. I don’t know quite what this is doing to me. I suppose I’ll only know at the end. Occasionally a stiff whiskey at the end of the day helps as well. So there’s a variety of ways, but …Some of the great themes of human existence are caught up in the life and work of the Commission and it’s something that has been with me since I was a young person trying to understand what life’s all about. Concepts of justice, of truth, of guilt, forgiveness. I hope that I make some contribution towards the healing of a society. // I’d like to write a book on the Commission, a human book, not just an analysis. But funny enough, I’d also like to write a crime novel, perhaps when the Commission is over I’ll do that. And just have much more relaxed exercising, whether it would be walking, climbing, playing tennis, that sort of … very ordinary sort of things.

Notes: Alex Boraine

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