Special Report Transcript Episode 9, Section 3, Time 24:20

I visited the Hani family two weeks later and met 12 year old Lindiwe. // Your mom said that you knew my name. // Ja, but I didn’t hear what happened. // Oh, about my dad? // He was shot in 1978 when I was thirteen and he was killed in our house. A bit like your dad. Were you here? // No. // Where were you? // I was in Sotho. // How did you feel? // Terrible. // How you’re feeling now? // OK. // Really? Sometimes OK? // Yes, sometimes. // Sometimes not? // Do you still feel bad now? // Ja, I do. It gets easier and it gets harder. And sometimes the sadness gets worse but you learn to not get over it, but you learn to live with it. You know who did it right? // No, ja I know the person who … // Does that, what does that feel like? // Knowing? It just feels like you want to go to that person and kill him yourself. How did you feel when you saw your dad lying on the floor? // I felt very numb. // How are you doing, I mean how are you getting through the days? // I don’t have a formula. There are days when I can’t sleep at all, there are days when I can sleep say up till nine but when I get up I am so depressed. Sometimes it goes on for days. So I wouldn’t say I have a formula of overcoming the whole thing, I don’t have it. You know, it’s very difficult. In my life, Chris wasn’t a husband I must say. He was a husband, he was a brother, he was a friend and he was a father. And there are so many things that remind me … every time you get up you know, like I have a terrible weakness: I can’t get up on my own. He had to wake me up all the time. And there is nobody to do it. But Nomakwesi has taken over, you know she’ll come close and say Mama, Mama, you have to get up. So all those small things that he used to do for us, you know it’s a reminder that he’s not in the house.

Notes: Jann Turner visits Hani family; Jann Turner; Lindiwe Hani; Jann Turner; Limpho Hani

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